He Rapéd Me & Now He's My Boyfriend.Sad story

I am a young girl of 20, and a 300-
Level student. In Nov 2011, things
fell apart between my boyfriend
and I. I was madly in love with
him at the time and he had
denied me in presence of my
friends.
I was finding it very hard to move on;
I started drinking heavily, I made
friends with a neighbor of mine
whom we both stayed in the same
hostel off campus. I started sharing
my problems with him and we soon
became really close.
One day, one of my friends who
came to spend some time with me
invited her boyfriend over so I
decided to give them little space so I
left to my neighbour's room, after
spending some time on returning to
my room I realised my friend's
boyfriend had slept off, it was about
past 11 pm and a face-off was going
on between two rival cults in school
making it very risky to move at night.
My friend pleaded with me to pass
the night at my neighbour's room
because it was early in the semester
and other students were not yet in
school. So I went back to his room
and asked if I could spend the night
and he said yes.
Later on that night he started acting
up trying 2 touch me, I pleaded and
begged him that I could not do it and
was still a virgin, but he didn't listen.
I had little or no strength that night
because I was drunk as usual, then
he forced himself on me.
After the incident he begged me that
he was sorry and he never believed
that I was saying the truth when I
told him I was a virgin, then he
started asking me out. I was
reluctant at first but I couldn't speak
out, I couldn't stand how my parents
would treat me when they realised I
had lost my virginity, especially to
rapé. I was going to be considered as
damaged goods, so I kept it all to
myself and concluded that I had
nothing else to lose if I dated him, so
I did.
In the beginning of the relationship
he treated me badly, forcing himself
on me whenever he was in the
mood; whether I wanted it or not
when he had to get down, he had to
get down.
This continued for some months till
he forced himself again on me one
afternoon when I was ill, the pain
was too much for me that in the
struggle I tore his clothes and
injured his hands. After he had
finished, he changed his clothes and
travelled leaving me crying on the
balcony, he didn't call for months.
I heard so many stories from his
room mate telling my friends that he
had a girlfriend and I was just a side
chick and in fact that I was the one
who was throwing advances to him
and I willingly agreed to be his
bedmate.
I was shattered and I tried pulling
myself back together only for him to
return 3 months later calling and
telling me he was sorry and he
wanted to be serious with me this
time and he was for real.
After so many condemnations from
my friends, I returned to him. Since
then he has been caring at least so I
thought but one thing still
continued; the continuous séxual
abuse. It didn't matter if I was on my
period, or I was sick, or even if I was
in tears, he'd tie my hands and even
use the pillow to cover my mouth to
prevent people from hearing my
voice.
After he's done he becomes sane
and he says he's sorry and expects
everything to just be fine. Last
month I discovered I was pregnant,
my boyfriend took it like a joke,
asking me to stop being dramatic
that it's a normal thing that girls do
all the time.
Four days after the abortion even
though I was still bleeding, he
started demanding for séx, and
when I refused he started ranting
about how he does things for me
and that he gains nothing from me in
return and then he had his way as
usual even after I had told him that it
was advisable to desist from séx at
this times because my womb was
still open and fragile and it could
lead to infection.
On Wednesday, he read a chat
between I and a friend of mine
whom I usually share my private
issues with and he accosted me
angrily, I tried explaining things to
him but he hit me and my lips
started bleeding.
He ripped off all my clothes, dragged
me on the floor to his bathroom in
tears,(although this was not the first
time it would happen other times
he'd threaten me with a knife, even
though at the end of it all he always
says he was joking and didn't mean
it).
He washed my body and had séx
with me again.
After he was done he told me he
didn't see anything wrong in what
he had done but that he was sorry
though, he has being apologizing
since then but at this point I really
don't know what to do. He didn't
even send me a val card, message or
even a handkerchief, although he
could really be caring at times.
I am quite attractive and I get offers
from many other guys outside but
I'm scared that they'll turn out to be
worse than he is and maybe they are
also just hiding their true intentions.
He's still apologizing and claiming
he was under the influence of
alcohol and he claims he loves me
very much, but I must really say I do
not know what to do.
Should I move on? Or should I stay
and hope that he'll change for real
this time?